Friday, November 6, 2020

From the Heart

I've always loved to be the wall flower. The underdog. To be part of the background is where I am most comfortable.

I prefer to silently achieve. Tough one , but I've loved that. Boasting does not come naturally to me.

More than anything I've always loved achieving what people say is impossible for me to do. :)

All through life, I have remembered being the responsible sibling, the source of strength for my parents, the mature one and so on.

So much so, today when I take a minute and look back, Wow!! Was I ever a child?? Did I even get to be innocent? Never.

Life has had a funny way of getting me to wish for normal things. But never have I been blessed with those.

Like a typical girl, I fell in love with an awesome person. 8 years long. I knew he loved me too. Only to be unable to tell my dad that I wanted to marry him. Never was I able to express myself.

Never was I able to go by my gut instinct. To reject a marriage that I knew was a disaster. To read through a fraudster who ripped me apart physically and emotionally, just because I chose to trust him.

Today, when I am pitied for choosing the life I live with, am I happy? No.

But I know God has filled it with peace. With hope. And like every pot has a lid, every endless night has a bright new day, I know my life will have a bright curve too :)

To the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! :)


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